Feel the heat/ Monday, April 21, 2008
i can't wait for may 7th! i can't wait to meet all of yall! i misssssssssss my frenssssssssssssssssssssss. =[
Everything I do, I do for you.
9:41 PM <3
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Feel the heat/ Friday, February 15, 2008
please go away, there's no space for both your ego and mine.
Everything I do, I do for you.
12:21 PM <3
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Feel the heat/ Monday, January 14, 2008
WINNING IS NOT EVERYTHING. WINNING IS MOST THINGS.
Everything I do, I do for you.
7:50 PM <3
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Feel the heat/ Thursday, December 06, 2007
and sometimes we hold on to something which was ours but for just a fleeting moment. we grip onto it so tightly, digging our nails deep into the flesh of our palms; the red marks left behind a mere reminder of the folly we persist in persuing.
"you cant lose what was never yours". just how many times have we heard this cliche? but then it's so relative, who's to say what was OURS to begin with. people hold on to different notions of possession and live by different rules which loosely govern their lives. it's vastly varied the cultures we are all exposed to and the speeds with which we react to different situations in our lives. we try to piece things together, to bridge the gap, yet somehow it seems more and more contrived. a pitchfork driven between us, causing this gaping rift never to be mended. no effort put on either side; faltering conversations; failing relationships. and we just keep waiting, waiting, waiting.
Everything I do, I do for you.
4:11 PM <3
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Feel the heat/ Friday, November 30, 2007
and i close my eyes and let your words from memory wash over me. ive got it on repeat.
"i dont love you like i do yesterday."
sometimes it's just fruitless, going through the motions simply to assuage the guilt.
altering myself to suit the majority, is that right?
"staring into space what a lonely phase"
how much of a person is it possible to know?
time heals, time kills.
"ive never cherished the freedom, freedom never cries"
Everything I do, I do for you.
1:24 AM <3
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Feel the heat/ Sunday, November 18, 2007
and we are deluded by friendship and our notion of it.
prata and true friends are deep love.
nothing like new toys to send me over the moon.
random statements is the theme of the day.
Everything I do, I do for you.
2:51 PM <3
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Feel the heat/ Friday, October 19, 2007
university can be so lonely at times. it's odd how you can be surrounded by so many people yet feel so isolated and alone. it's really difficult making true and lasting friends really, with such short periods of time you get to spend with the people you meet, it takes great effort to actually get to know these people better. and when you do, how much of the side you're seeing is the real them?
i'm getting incresingly skeptical and cynical when it comes to making friends, i keep double guessing their motives and wondering abt their true reasons and incentives behind each step. it is really tiring keeping up this facade, and i feel so contrived doing it. moreover, i cant help but feel like ive lost my long term goal, or that the long term aim i have, which is to graduate with honours, is simply too vague. im just doing enough to get by and the furthest i seem to be planning for is the day after. it seems like all im doing is clearing up anything outstanding for the next day, upon completion of that, then im home free. typing it this way, it sure seems like ive got mounds of time but i really beg to differ. hall is rather sucking up and sapping away what semblances of energy ive got left. and i wonder how i am to keep this up. i feel like i've not got the motivation to keep on moving anymore. someone dangle a carrot in fornt of me already please!
and on a sidenote, oh gosh i'm so sorry. turn back time and let's pretend to be equally oblivious yeah?
Everything I do, I do for you.
5:12 PM <3
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